My uncle passed away at 5.20am this morning at my hometown and I just know about it few minutes ago(and now is 1106am) since my sis left a message on my phone.

It was quite depressing since I’m quite close with my uncle and he raised me as his own since his own son, my age, passed away when he was little. I wanted to cry but I can’t since someone has to be strong.

I missed him. But I cannot go and take holiday just to go to his funeral. I’m in the state of depression

Am I cruel for not attending his funeral?